multiple mental orgasm.

♥ vain brain ♥ anything goes ♥

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

window shopping and procrastination

Last tuesday, Bernie and I went to bay small(because bay mall is small hehehe). I was supposed to buy new sim cards and she tagged along.

We mooched around and examined most of the stuffs there like swimsuits, bras and underwears from manang-style to thongs, kiddie shoes, slippers, kitchenwares, beauty products, accessories, tops, home decors, nail coats, glasswares, and God knows what else! We even romanticize the aroma of men perfumes and scented candles. Ahhhh, I swear I've given my olfactory sense a delightful treat.

Then, we went home because we have our finals and Bernie will surely have some serious reading. Forget about me because I really don't mind attacking a crucial examination with only a few things in my brain which I perceived in our class discussions given the fact that I daydream and scribble things on the back of my notebook most of the time.

oh my god...

I have a lot of stories from the past week but I forgot everything. The story above, however, managed to be published because I wrote it before and I saved it as a draft. My memory is really down. No backups, everything's corrupt. Damn, how can I manage to make rhymes in the middle of my memory problems?
I think I should check GNC if they have Ginkgo Biloba.

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

shedding inches

Guess who had an exaggerated haircut last Friday and a 'damage control' just awhile ago. Hahaha!

I'm still on a state of shock for my hair has never been this short and it is only now that I accepted the challenge of sporting such short hair after 10 long years. It must be because I don't have a choice. Well, I should admit that if there's really a part of my life or destiny that I don't get hold of, it's this haircutting matter. Gay parloristas just know how to perfectly run and ruin lives. They either make or break you.

I'm starting to miss my old hair. Sure, it's fugly and it can be very unruly under certain conditions but I just loved it. I have surely neglected and tortured it but again, as I have said, I loved it.

I used to look barbaric with my rebellious and coarse hair but after the damn evil gay haircutter laid his scissors on my hair and cut inches with no mercy, I looked prim and proper. I felt that I have somehow lost a fraction of my individuality. This is so not me.

And oh, I have bangs too. It's long before. Sideswept. But because I'm an occasional idiot, I cut it straight. Ugly. Then I had it repaired this afternoon. And now it looked...normal.

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Friday, March 16, 2007

bla bla

I'm bitter and hell, I'm on the middle of huge issues which stab me one by one. I'm trying to hold myself from shedding tears or even just thinking about the whole thing but I just hope I was a numb creature or a plain dumb idiot. Whatever.

Maybe I should sleep so I don't have to deal with this emotional bullocks. I'm too drained to stress about this anyway.

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

giving way

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to give everyone peace.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to give everyone a good sleep.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to give everyone what they want.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to maintain relationships.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to deter conflicts.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to save others.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to minimize issues.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to show respect.

i am keeping a huge fraction of my feelings under wraps so as to let itself work on its own and make a change.

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Friday, March 09, 2007

ahhhhhhlergies.

I had allergies. boo. recently, my skin has been very sensitive and I do not know why. Just last week, I had little red spots all over my body, mostly breeding on my inner arms and thighs. It only lasted for a day, I think, and in fact, it disappeared on its own. I don't know where it came from in the first place. Ok, so must be from the unhealthy food I ate or something. Fine, I'm the one to blame.

But what happened last wednesday is quite a different story. It was our homeroom class and just as I head towards the volleyball court with Bernadette for some games, a fast and just as fiesty whip of dust assailed us, or was it just me. Then my face started itching after a minute or so. But of course, I'm an idiot and I scratched it with my long nails. Aaahhhhh. So to compensate, I washed my face with water but the damn itchiness was still taking its toll on me.

Then to make the story short, large bumps accumulated on my face and it was so fugly. As in. I was brought to the clinic and the nurse told me to apply this certain lotion which looks like a liquid foundation on my face and since I'm a make-up enthusiast, I obliged and enjoyed her command. I blend, blend, blend. It's still ugly, of course. As I was waiting for my allergies to subside, I just slept for a while in their cute comfort beds.

The next thing I knew, two of my classmates were watching me sleep and was about to fetch me because according to them, they might lose the volleyball game, ehem, if I'm not around. Hahaha.

So I bid goodbye to the nurses and went with Val. On our way, we passed by a car and being vain, I looked at my reflection in it's window. I was shocked with what I saw, damn, the allergies are still very obvious and I have to return to the clinic! My adviser accompanied me since we met her on our way. Then, the nurses advised that I should be fetched so I can have a check-up.

I called my mom and after about twenty minutes, she arrived and we went to St. Patrick's to have emergency medicine and errr, a vaccine. I slept there for about thirty minutes 'cause of the shot's sleeping effects.

Ahhhhhh, I'm such a babe.

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